So it’s time to do the thing. It’s time to focus on goals for 2020. I’m not talking about the resolutions that everyone makes and then forgets about by January 3rd. I’m talking about those long term, get in gear, stop saying you’re going to do the thing, JUST DO THE THING. 2020 is a nice even year to just do the thing. I do have some goals in mind and I hope in sharing them here, I’m holding myself more accountable for my actions this year.
- Be happy. While looking back at past posts and past entries from LiveJournal, I realize that I have come a long, long way from 2009. I was 24 and I was still doing a lot of learning. I carried a lot of what I’d felt since I was a teenager into being a young adult and I realize in retrospect how detrimental that was to my own personal growth and my mental health. I give myself some leeway, though. Everyone in their mid-20s is still holding on to something from adolescence. I was holding on to things I don’t even really give much thought to anymore. And I’m glad. I’m glad I’ve moved on from that stage and have shifted into a different stage over the past 10 years. I’m hoping to see even more growth in the decade to come, in the year to come. Small steps.
- Be more organized. I’m extremely organized in some facets of my life. If I’m going on a trip, you bet your butt I have absolutely everything ready and available. I usually bring a binder, although, I’ve stopped doing this to save paper and ink. Now I just organize digitally, but I’m organized. Then there are huge places in my life where I’m not at all organized. My home is definitely one of these places. I’m just messy. I’ve always been really, really messy. Part of it is definitely because I have so much stuff that I’m often at a loss for how to organize everything. So part of being organized is getting rid of things. I have a lot of psychological issues tied to being unable to let go of things. I’ve moved a lot in my life and I don’t have a home base. My parents don’t have a house where I can store childhood items. I’m the one who’s in charge of childhood items and memories and I do like to keep them. There has to be a way to store these and not take up too much room. Gonna YouTube this. There is definitely a tutorial about this somewhere.
- Be more active. I don’t just mean getting off my butt more. Sure, there’s always that. But I want to DO more. This post is definitely the first step in that. It’s the beginning of the year and this is the way I want to start. I need to start putting my money where my mouth is. I need to become more active through writing, expressing the way I feel about theater, Filipinos represented in the media, boosting Filipino American voices through social media, etc., etc. I have a thousand ideas that need to be implemented in organized and efficient ways.
- Be good to me. I’m terrible to me. I’m horrible when it comes to me. It’s definitely part of the reason that I get almost nothing done or nothing started. I think I’m not capable of anything. There are full days where that’s in my head and nothing I can contribute to this planet is worthy of being seen or acknowledged. I do hate that because there are days where I feel like I have a lot to give. It’s just the days where I feel terrible overpower the days that are good. I have to try to prevent that from happening. I need to stop it in its tracks before it gets started because it’s a train. Once it gets started, it’s difficult to stop. Stopping it in its tracks is the goal in 2020. Just get started and it goes where it goes from there.
That’s it! Those are my list of goals for the year. I plan on being back here in exactly a year to see how well I did or how I failed dismally. But now is not the time to fail! This is an even year and it’s the year to get things done. How did I start this new year, you ask? Well, started with the Rose Parade, got some sleep (a long nap), woke up for some relaxing afternoon television, and now I’m doing this. Here, have a photo from one of my favorite moments from the Rose Parade today!